That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself.

I can show you the world
Shining, simmering, splendid
Tell me princess, now when did you last
Let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

I love this song! I've always thought that Aladdin is very, very cute. Aladdin used to be my favourite cartoon. I've watched every single one :) I watched the movie some days ago, and I came to know that I dint remember most of it! I guess I watched the movie WAY before I started watching the series. I did not know things like Genie had three rules:
-He cant make anyone fall in love with anyone
-He cant kill anyone
-He cant raise anyone from the dead

I also dint know that there was a law that a princess could only marry a prince.
I had two big aladdin jigsaw puzzles, dont know where the heck it is now :((
Lol, would you believe it if I said that my earliest crushes were all cartoon characters? There was this other guy called Max - Goofy's son.


And these shows were all in Hindi. And that was how I learnt Hindi lol..(Does anyone remember VIshal bhaiyya and Disney Hour?) I dont think I've ever seen any English cartoons (not until I started getting the Disney Channel, and then I was about 15!!)


And now I've got a cold, and I cant go anywhere near Ibrahim. Daaaarn. Everytime I'm about to get a cold or a fever, my throat acts weird at first. And when my throat started its khich-khich last week, and I told my mother that I wouldnt wash my head that day, that I had had a Crocin and it will hopefully get better, she FORCED me to go have a complete shower. God, I was pissed that day. If I hadn't listened to her, she'd start this whole drama and she'll say that I never lissen to her and all that serious bullshit. And now here I am, with a running nose, keeping away from Ibrahim, who is crying A LOT.

Yesterday, I woke up in the morning dreaming about him. It was such a sad dream. And in the evening I heard this song 'Moraa Saiya' by some band whose name I forgot. (Amit Sana sang this song beautifully, in Indian Idol Season 1. And the video shows a village girl becoming a big star, the director likes the girl, but she gets famous and ignores him, the director later dies etc etc). And now I miss him. He's NOWHERE to be seen! Not on orkut, not on gmail. He did not mail me. I'm not supposed to miss him. I hate this. #%$!$!#$!@FDAA What, am i crazy?

So today, i finally glued myself to my chair and did some problems on mole, which is my favourite part in chemistry, but still was tiring! and i did slack one whole hour, when i got out of the house under pretending that i needed some fresh air. I ran around two times, took exactly two deep breaths and went inside to take a look at Ibrahim. He was sleeping and my mother was changing his nappy, so I helped (Only in putting things into the dustbin, though they say that I'll have to do the whole thing by myself after a while - whatever, he's almost like my kid only, I dont mind - I said. Maybe they thought I'd go 'ewwh' and then they could force me and have their fun)

Today I helpd him for almost 10 minutes. Awww.. he's really really small (this is the n-th time i'm saying this to someone.. including myself :D) The next thing I know, he'll be pulling my hair and scribbling in my books haha.

And when i got out of the room (where Ibrahim was) I had lost 45 minutes!!!! LOL i had got out only for 5 :D If time flies like this, Ibrahim will start going to school very, very soon.

Yeh, well, when i sit alone, I get these breakthrough ideas for studying
'let's make a study group'
'let's wake up at 3 in the morning' ---> big laugh
'let's do 350 MCQs'
'let's delete our orkut account'
[Us being me and my better, more responsible, more mature, less fun self]
Ugh, but we never, ever get along.. Should work on that. hmmm...

Some things that I have achieved:
-lesser orkut
-no TV [and thats only coz we didn't recharge TataSky yet.. this shouldn't be on this list - strike it off]
-no reading books [you'd think that reading is good, but it's as addictive as internet]

Some things that I havent achieved:
-waking up early
-sitting up late
-completeing my chemistry/calculus/matrices notes
-doing my Physics assignment
-my project
-my record!!

I dont know what the fcuk I'm doing nowadays. And I dont know why the heck I'm so tired - ALWAYS. I eat breakfast - I swear..
I dont even take care of my skin properly. That cream that the doctor gave me, I never use it. The other lotion either. And my mom says that maybe she'll take me to the dentist to get me braces on my teeth (and old plan - very, VERY old). I'm not really embarrassed about that,yannow. But still it would've been nicer if I were younger - I'm 17 now. YEs, almost ;)

I wont be lazy anymore. Promise.

I'm not scared, I'm terrified..
But why the heck arent i doing anything about it??? Gaaahhh..

Over here, you're either a doctor, or an engineer, or a loser. And since i've dropped biology, and my parents dont want people to think that I'm a loser, I'm supposed to be an engineer. How i hate that, grrrrrrrrrrrrr.. I even talked to my mother about that. You'd be shocked to hear what she said : 'Dont even think about taking up anything else'. Sh!t, my family is SO damn cool.

I've always wanted to work in the UN. Or maybe be a journalist. Or do some literary research.
How on earth is that going to work out??
Does having a B.Tech degree hurt anyone?

And so, here's my plan:
a)learn
b)get a good rank in the CETs
c)be a total kiss-ass
d)since my parents are always happy with me and listen to me for almost 3 months after a great result comes, i'll ask them about this
e)that way : they could boast 'ohh she could go for engineering, but she's so cool she doesnt want to do what the whole world's doing.'

I'm an idiot - how is that going to work?? I should do well in the CETS not bacause I have to convince my parents to let me do something other than engineering, but because otherwise, I'll have to study in the college next door, where my mother (plus all her surveillance camera friends) is a lecturer, and I'll be stuck here my entire life!!!!!!! Oh no no, please, no, dont, let, that, happen God!!!

So, I'm going to stick to LJ only, for now. Orkut is banned for me, by me. I wont ask my mother to lock the computer or get rid of the internet - coz the last time I did (does anyone remember???), she disconnected the internet, and didn't get it back for a YEAR!!
This is not like tenth, this is twelfth. And I canNOT afford to mess this one.

Little Ibrahim is here now. He's always sleeping. The doctor has said to keep him covered all the time (he's supposed to still be inside my sister's body, we were expecting him only by the end of may). He's tinier than normal babies, obviously. He doesnt cry too much. He always stretches. He has a long neck. He has a different face when he opens his eyes. He's a nocturne, he sleeps all day - doesnt even get up to drink milk and then he wakes up at night and ruins everyone else's sleep lol. I dont touch him a lot. My hands have to be clean. Visitors are strictly restricted. I'm bad at baby-talk. So I sing 'Rock-a-Bye-Baby' to him. Omg I know, it is such a scary song, whoever wrote it was evil. I should switch to 'Itsy-Bitsy-Spider', but I forgot the lines. Should google it.

'Ismail' would have been better (Prophet Ismail was Prophet Ibrahim's son). My sister said maybe they'd name their next child that (IF it is a boy, of course). Lol, Ibrahim's just born, and everyone's planning other rhings! My sister's thinking of Ibrahim's siblings, my mother's thinking of Ibrahim's bride (she was telling abt getting a girl named Azma.. was that Prophet Ibrahim's wife?? I'm bad at Islamic history...), my cousin brothers are thinking about teaching him all the swear words, hmmm and what am I thinking about?? I'm waiting to be the world's coolest, craziest, funnest aunt :)

I havent uploaded any pictures yet. Will post them later.
I should go and take a shower, my mother wont let me near Ibrahim otherwise. She always calls him 'Eeb-raheem' haha, it's funny.

okay... so this may come as a little bit of a surprise... but

MY SISTER JUST HAD A BABY BOY YESTERDAY!!!

oh god this is so embarrassing, i dint even write about my sister being pregnant here.. so yay!!! im a real aunt, finally. so the little guy is named ibrahim (honestly, i dont like the name.. but well its not my child!). im thinking of pet names.. suggestions please...

my sister was due only by the end of may. she was always complaining that she wasnt feeling the baby at all, so one day after i come home after tuitions, my mom and sister are packing their bags, getting ready to go to trivandrum, where there is this hospital which is nicer and has better facilities. we were just expecting her to be admitted, and maybe given some medicines, and then sent home. she was planning to stay in some relative's place at trivandrum. to make it clear, we were LEAST expecting the child.

and then early in the morning, my mom calls and says that my sister's water broke. i remember my grandmother telling me this. but i was like 'ohh yehh.. really?okay.you go see her. im not coming today' and then i went back to sleep. being the fool that i am, i didn't get it when my grandmother said 'vellom poi' (or something like that, in malayalam). so i assumed that maybe the amniotic fluid leaked (how serious is that? i dont know).

and i was all 'oh you go grandma, im not coming, anyways i'll miss a lot of classes later (when the baby's supposed to come!)'. and finally my mom called and told 'you better come, its most prolly going to be today'.. it was like my grandmother was waiting to hear this she started crying! and i dunno what, i also started crying. it was so soap-ish, seriously.. and then on the way, she started crying when she heard that they'd have to do a caesarean. yehh, as if its the first time anyone's ever doing that.

so.. thinking to myself in the car, i could only picture myself naming folders 'my nephew', but i really, really, really wanted a girl :( [but that's totally okay] by the time we got there, evryone over there had already seen him once, and then he was taken to the NICU (Newborn/Neonatal ICU) so we had to wait a bit more to see him.

oh and finally i got to meet him.. omg he was so small! the nurse was holding him so, i just touched his fingers, which were all so tightly closed. and he was constantly punching the air with his fists. now rhar was funny - wonder how me sister didn't feel that! didn't get to see his eyes. i almost cant believe that it's actually the person i've bin waiting for, for 8 whole months. i took his picture, but i kept the camera at the hospital, so i cant post any. and about that, im here at home(with the housemaid), my mother and grandmother are all at trivandrum.

oh and i dunno what's wrong with these people. first of all, they get all anxious and tensed for nothing(and when i say anxious and tensed, i mean hugging, crying, not smiling, dramatizing, crying when seeing the child, saying 'oh dont take photos'), the DOCTOR said the baby had no problem, but still everyone's almost as sad as if something really bad happened. yeh its true that he's tiny, but come on, he is just as active as any other kid, thats what the nurses said. and second of all, just as we were about to leave for trivandrum, i realized i dint take the camera. and just as i was about to go take it, my grandmother and aunt started shouting 'ohhhh noooo dont take the camera...nooo wait.' i think it has something to do with haraam?? that we arent supposed to take pictures??? lol, how about all the 3521413143 we took earlier?? yeh, thats good, remember god only when ur daughter is about to have a premature baby. so i told 'femitha told me to take the camera' and then suddenly they all shut up, coz femitha's obviously the favouritestest child in the family, and they'd do nothing to disappoint her, especially when she's in 'such a condition'. and at the hospital, when i took the camera, a thousand people (my relatives)gather around (come on, they can only bully me, i was the youngest there, and i had a really harmful camera with me.. gaahhh) asking 'what is wrong with you. you're not supposed to take pictures of such a small child.' njaanara mol.. i told them that i'd take the pics no matter what they said :D.. what would i tell ibrahim if he one day asks me 'you were young and cool, you dint take my picture when i was born?? how could you?'.. what would i tell him then?
hey.. now that i think of it.. - i took his first picture... awwwwwwwwwwww isnt that so sweet of me ???

lo, i have a nephew finally. wonder what he's going to be like when he grows up. i hope he's like me. my sister and bro-in-law are NO fun at all. lol, some ppl said that he looks like how i looked when i was born :) :) :) :) will he cry or smile once he starts recognizing me? i just cant wait till he starts talking. aarrrrgghh.. i wish he was my age, we couldve become better friends. whoaa... 17 years younger. that's scary, i've never known anyone so small. im getting older. hmm.. cant wait for him to grow up!

since i was on hiatus, let me tell you ppl some of the things that happened during this one year

-harry potter!
so, deathly hallows FINALLY released and my mom bought it for me on july 21st!!!! oh god let me tell you, nothing could have ever made me ANY happier. i couldn't sleep the previous night, and eventhough i knew that harry wouldnt die (rowling wouldnt do that), i was really really pissed when it was shown on the news that harry wont die. but well, what they actually said was that harry kills voldemort and walks hand in hand with ginny in the end.

anyways, i still remember july 21 - i woke up at 5 in the morning and got ready by 6.30 and i called the malayala manorama office (where i had to go and get the book) and this guy takes the phone and tells 'we already started giving the books'.. WTF??? it was given, in the newspaper that they'd start giving them only by 7. well, by the time i reached there, i was the third person (daaarrrnnn). well i think i must be just happy that my mom bought me the book. ahhh that was supposed to be my reward for the board exam results (in addition to all the new salwar kameezs that she bought me:D)

deathly hallows was the best thing that ever happened in 2007.. i had this notepad in which i wrote the story's progress, which characters died at what time. and when snape died, i had this urge to write ha-ha, but i did not do that... dunno why. and well, snape turned out to be such a gentleman!

-school
ho, 11th standard was...okay. i wont say brilliant, but 10th was way, way better. anyone remember vinay?? look at my icon, i think it makes everything clear about him. wont burden you with all the useless details.

well, i dint work any hard during my 11th, eventhough i know that if i have to get into a good college, i need to do my entrance tests well, and entrance tests include 11th standard portions also. but what's 11th year without fun? so i had it, too much i think. there was no internet at home, so i got to read more books than i used to.

ahh.. writer's block.. will edit this entry laterrrrr

-ugh.. talking abt him makes me sick.. will post later

saw this movie 'Hanging Up' and i cried. i really cried!! i never cry. i dunno. so meg ryan's dad dies. big deal - it's obvious from the beginning, that's what the story is about anyways. we know he's gonna die and its not supposed to be a really big thing coz, well, he wasnt the perfect father ever. meg ryan even calls him a 'nutcase' and 'a handful' and 'bastard'. he ruined her son's 5th birthday. he is a mess. but i cried when he died. why do i feel that its pathetic??

there have bin times when i've thought that i'd never feel the least bit sad if my mom/dad died. i've had the ugliest fights with my mom and she says the worst things to me. and my dad?? in my whole life, i've never spent any, any, any 'quality' time with him. atleast not any time that i remember.

after my mom, my sisters and i moved to india from abu dhabi, he comes for visits - once every few months for just 7 or 10 days. and on each of these days he'd be out doing i dont know what in the plots all over this place and meeting ppl whose names i've bin hearing for year. and when he's home, he's always sitting in the porch, grumbling that he doesnt have a room for himself, that he dint manage to buy/sell some plot somewhere.

i used to think that everything he did when he came here for 'visiting us' was important. but now im old enough to understand how stupid he is for not spending more time with his daughters. especially me, who has spent only about 5 years with him - like throughout 24x7. i dont know my dad and he doesnt know me. and i dont like that i really really dont

i think its all so irrepairable now, coz by the time he retires and comes back here, i'll be in some other place, either working or studying, coming home once every one or two weeks. and then i'll get married to someone. and all my life i'll regret how i never get to know my Dad. i wonder if he ever thought the same way anytime. i seriously doubt that. i wish i could join the "daddy's girl" community coz i've always thought that its so cute to be one. Daddy's Girl - now that's so not me

it's not fair. :( if any dad is reading this, please dont ever leave your children - not even for the best job in the world. please dont.

something that i had saved looooong ago
march 26 monday

sighhhhhhhhhhhh
long time aye???
even my fingers arent going that fast on the keyboard.. ohhh i know what you're thinking about!!! my BOARDS rite??? gve me a break yaar.... it was just an ordinary exam ...yeh yeh you got that correct, i dint do it well :( i could've done it way better. well there's no use cryin over split milk. i dunno - i got the hardest question paper set in science, i did a STUPID careless mistake in maths (dont ask), and i got the wind veloity for a wind mill wrong - i wrote 15 km per second instead of 15 km per HOUR!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaarrrghhhhh 15 km per second is like escape velocity...... shit.. see, even when i was learning (ahem.... on exam eve btw), i was like "er.. 15 km per second.... thats really fast ... hmmm" duhhhh yes that was!! and i still remember looking thru that sentence and i CLEARLY remember my eyes going till 15 km per - the rest - I DINT READ !!!!! aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrghhhhhhhh.... 15 km per SECOND?????????what the heck was i thinking . inna pidi - ennittu enneyangu kollu.

maths was terrible. maybe people wont really believe - but i got tensed and thats kinda the only reason that i got three answers wrong. well, you might think that people who dint learn well say that as an excuse. well everyone i know thinks like that.. but you guys???? you understand me right? i guess so. i should'nt have gone for the maths tution. well its not like 'tuition' as such. its just 'clearing doubts' . sir doesnt take classes. you go there and IFyou want to learn, you can take some math-guide from there and start doing problems.. if you have a doubt you ask sir or maybe the person sitting near you - more like combined study.. (and its a lot of fun) well there was this guy - shyam - who had learnt everything and was a total show off.. no im not AT ALL angry at him (he was kinda cute and sweet lol), but he knew EVERY question that i didnt and on the eve of the exam he was READING a maths book... you know when you READ a maths book???? when you know everything and you can conquer the whole world with your math power. and i got really scared and insecure and tensed and confidence-drained and what not. and then ....... at night i started thinking all sorts of things.. well i got full marks for maths for my model exams - now now you stop gasping - i did learn well !!! oh anyway it doesnt matter coz ... its model and noone asks your model marks - everyone asks your board marks dammit... and i was like 'what if i get less marks this time????' and .. i dint sleep. full stop. end of story. well maybe i did sleep -an hour or so. i was in my bed, eyes closed and praying for my exam to be easy, all the while thinking about how i dint learn well etc etc. all through the morning and through the exam i had a terrible headache and i thought that i'd faint (actually tution sir said that we had to get good sleep or otherwise we'll faint during the exam like one of his older students did in the middle of her maths exam- waaaaaaaahhhh why did he have to tell that to me ???) and i felt that i wouldn't be able to finish it in time. and i got the income tax question wrong. can u believe it??? income tax!!! that was the fun lesson in math. they give every single detail about the person - the exemptions, the slab, the EVERYTHING. ohh and do you know how many quarters i have in a year?? THREE. yes.. how the hell did i even think of that ?????? i've done many questions of income tax with LIC paid in quarters..

i should've stayed home and learnt by myself. thats how i did for my first model exam. and i got full marks for it!! aaaaaaarrrrrghhhh... didnt i just say that there's no use crying over spilt milk???
i never got my income tax wrong. but for my boards?? it had to go wrong. well it must go wrong. coz its me. everything bad always happens to me and all the other goody-goodies take away everything that i should get. gaaahhhhh im not jealous. i dunno why i even said that. im not going to backspace it. it came from my mind and its gonna be there. darn... guys.. i could've done it WAY better.. please give me one more chance .. i'll prove it to you - seriously.. but no i cant get a second chance!! why??? because 'tense standard' is
the most important year of your life,
a turning point in your career (?????),
a way to prove yourself,

and the 'bored' exams are what that counts - not the stupid silly preboards where u get good marks and a 90%

goshh i should stop whining(obviously)... hmm.... you know what??? i never talked abt this to anyone .. not even crazygurl424 or richu or bhavya who are my best friends or even my mom or my sister or even myself.. lol maybe it makes sense to say this to a computer (well atm im talking to a computer right??) i kinda get a lot tensed.. i never used to .. but this time i did. mind you, the boards bring the best from the worst and the worst from the best. it would've been fine if it was just any other exam.. but there's a lot of competition.. and last year a lot of people got 95% *falls down fainting*. hmm... i dunno i just cant wait till the end of may for the results yaar... two whole months??? how will i distract myself?? whatever... *deep breath in and out* that makes everything a lot better i guess.

maybe tenth is not such a great deal. what if i get fab marks for my twelfth boards?? god what am i doing?? im in-say-ne....

does anyone remember me asking advice on how to get back at nerdy in my class for bitching about me to my class teacher???

well... so the last day, our class teacher comes into class and says that someone put a comlpaint in the suggestions box that she doesnt tell anything about the basics of any lesson, she just gives photocopies of the notes blablablah.. and i was like 'now who would do that????' and just then chinnu who sits behind me said 'its got to be nerdy. she always whines abt miss's teaching'. well.. i couldnt really believe that coz she is every teacher's pet. but she does always say how she hates our class teacher's class, how its always 'so theoretical without jokes'

so she asked us all to take a paper and give her some kind of feedback.. if we have any prob or not vagera.. and i look at nerdy - she's not there!!! and later, i found that she was sitting in the last bench and was telling some others that she dint give the feedback.. !!!!!!!

noone else has the guts to put a suggestion abt our class teacher whos the strictest teacher in school. so now is the time for revenge... and what the heck - even if she wasnt the one who put the suggestion, there's PROOF that she cud be the person.. ahahahahaha

we told it to the class teacher.. but nerdy dint get into trouble yaar :((( what the heck??? but it is always the thought that counts.. isnt it?? so i dont have much of a problem :D :D

and in case anyone wants to read the entry in which i wrote abt nerdy :
http://pritygirl.livejournal.com/39598.html

well, changing tracks.. how are you guys?? there are lizards in this cafe - yuck..
last sunday i saw a beheaded lizard in my table (head on top of my drawer and body inside the table) yuucckkkkkk... and its eyes were open. ewwwwhhh. i'm still shivering.

i think i have to go - lots and lots of things are happening lately. so i think i can promise you that you wont be bored... i'm planning to come online again next wednesday.. byeeee <3 u all

hii guys.. remember me??

seriously, i dont get time to come to this cafe (where the computers are DAMN slow)
and well, im in +1 now.. lol it sounds so funny. and i'm 16 years old. god.. sixteen??? woooooowww

and you know what?? i miss you guys.. yes i really really miss you. when i come home from school i have to sit in front of the tv and then go upstairs and learn. i hate it when i switch on the computer (which is very rare). craap.. my computer is like a dead body. and all those good times i had with it. sigghh.. and guess what i do when i get free time//???? i listen to music... gaaaaaaaaahhhh that used to be my LEAST favourite pastime..

god i think im gonna cry..
not in a mood to write anymore
i hate this

maybe i can come later and post something fun,, byee
:((((

helloo... yeh. this computer is okay.. (in a cafe again)
here goes:
english - 90
malayalam - 95
maths - 95
science - 90
social science - 98 (hehe... that is nice )

total - 93%
whoaaaaa... not bad huh .. its great!!! yesterday i was like '88 or 89%..dont expect anymore' and i dint think that i'd even sleep yesterday. but, i (over)slept and the first thing i heard in the morning was my mom saying my percent. (dad looked it up and called). and well guess what nerdybitch is not the topper.. maybe most of you dont know her, but she kinda ruined almost one whole year of mine (and still going strong).

arre, i dunno... english only 90??? usually i get the highest in english in the whole tenth standard. this time the highest is 96.. shit.. yeh well.. 93% is fine with me - totally :D (but well i COULD have got atleast 99 or 98 in maths .. i made i lot of silly silly mistakes .. yeh but what the heck..) phew... angane patham class pass aayi :)

so.. how ARE you guys??? i havent read ANY of your journals.. i missed LJ sooooooo badly.

and.. what else.. hmm.. its raining really hard.. aaaaaarrrghh.. i promise -next time, there will be something interesting to read .. you people take care
annndddd... thank you all for praying for me (im just assuming that you did)
love you all :)

(i'll post something later )
i'm sick of this GODDAMN cafe
#$@#@%#%^%$&^$&$^&@#%@

yehhh... i know .. loong time
dont even ask about the boards
will post about it later...

ohh news flash - there is no internet at home wow that is SO great news right?? craapppp.. hmmm... hmm... i've got writers block. saw the mammootty movie Big B - it was ok .. but dont watch it.. but i really liked that other young guy in the movie named biju .. not in the mood to search his picture, and post it here

im at thrissur right now, tomorrow's thrissur pooram. maybe we'll see the vedikkettu from the top floor here. ohhh went to veega land ater three years

byeeeee

This one's a good bye post. Well, my mom's even throwing hints that we may not have internet again (NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO)
Hah, i know she's kidding, or is she - tell me she's kidding. hmmphh.. i wont let her get away with it.

Live journal has always been a special place for me. okay wait let's bolden the special - special. And i guess you know why, coz you feel the same way too!!
I <3 LIVEJOURNAL

Pinne.. what else?? God I've got lots to learn. And Vinay's not my type - now, you stop laughing. NO ITS NOT FUNNY!! Its sad. Now say 'Awwww.. I'm so sorry for you. Maybe you need to spend more time with him/ It's just a misunderstanding.. it'll get better/ Maybe another cute guy will come to your school next year, in the eleventh, in your class'.

GOD am I going crazy?? Lack of sleep, lack of confidence, lack of things to type.... Oh and of course lack of learning anything

dammit. i hate punctuating when i type - it is so damn slow yaar. it took like forever to write the above three paragraphs, if i may call it so. so i'm not trying that ever again.
and and and my pimples ARE getting lesser after i went to that doctor (i guess i mentioned him here) and im happy about it.. but the scars/marks are still there i think. should go to school tomorrow and ask all my friends if my face has changed for the better (we had study leave for 9 days)

and till i come back, ciao and miss me :)

so.. i have my model exams next week, and another model exam next month..
and my BOARD exams - we call them BORED exams - are on march 2

the only good part in this is that my examination centre is the school next door!!!
god im so relieved. last year's tenth standards had to go to some other school that was really far away. i really cant handle the pressure - first of all im going to another school for writing the exam and i know i'll get tensed all the way long. but this is nice - i can sleep late and just get out of my house just in time to get into the exam hall (of course i wont do that lol) now there's some advantage of living near a school and not studying there :)

so you guys do me a teeny weeny favour ok??
pray for me . and thats a request.
please
just once will do. say 'god let this girl get a good percent in her boards(though i know she never works hard :D)'
my exams always go well when people pray for me

and and and good news is that i got a frikking 91% for my second terminal exams and i stand third in class!!!! and i think im among the top ten in the whole tenth standard. now, flashback :
1st mid term exam- 79% B grade
1st terminal exam- 88% A grade
2nd mid term exam- 85% Agrade
and 2nd terminal- 91% A+ !!!!!!!

wow i'm really really really really really really really really really really really really happy (ouch my fingers hurt lol). it really feels good yaar, standing third in class, getting an A+.... these are the things i've bin missing since my eighth standard. its like my life's getting better all over again :) teachers saying good things about me. mind you, last year i had really bad problems with the teachers AND the princi. and this year all the teachers like me and they say i've improved and all - it feels good.

some days before i was flipping through my ninth standard papers and i found these in it. i was going through a hell lot of problems then.
( not the whole of them - some excerpts only )

and my internet's getting disconnected, we're getting rid of the asianet connection and shifting to bsnl. after 3 months. ie after my boards. till then ciao [and to anylinde i guess you might know this by now, but i remember you asking, loooooong ago, how ciao is pronounced. its chao :) got that info just recently from a chat friend in italy]

i am so mad at myself rite now.
ughhhh... why did i even have to open my mouth??
note to self : SHUT YOUR MOUTH SHUT IT UP ()#&*$&@*$@$@
i know that i havent done anything wrong , then why the HELL am i feeling guilty?
vishnu's outta my life and anything he says is not supposed to bother me.

i feel like the most
cruel
mean
heartless
shameless
worthless
stupid
evil
bitchy
vicious
nasty
rude
person on earth..

no, im not guilty about breaking up with him. this is sumthing else

-singledom
that was one thing i really really really really needed in 2005 and it was my new year resolution in 2006. so i give myself a pat on the back for doing that. and so it comes on the top of this list

-good movies
fanaa and rang de basanti. these two movies dint take much time to get into my favourite list. i never had a 'FAVOURITE' movie other than kal ho naa ho. ironic that being an SRK fan, my movie favourite includes only one SRK movie and two aamir khan movies. and the last movie i saw this year - Notebook(malayalam movie). seriously, i liked it. the sify review that i read was VERY misleading and it was utter nonsense. i loved the movie and it says that the characters have dialogues that are not spoken by teenagers/school students. its
wrong - i disagreeeeeeeee

-good books
five point someone by chetan bhagat. that was really nice. i really liked the book. to be honest i dint really read much books this year(and i dont even remember most of them). another book that i really liked was breakfast with tiffany. it was about a man whose 13 year old neice comes to live with him because her single mother cant manage her with her younger daughter. it wasnt really awesome but it had some great dialogues and all. gawd i cant remember any other book that i read (or did i read any others?)

-abu dhabi
though i really got a lot bored over there, it was a fun experience, bc i got to see my oooold friends after about 8 years. it really was nostalgic to go to my old school and meet my old teachers. and see family friends and my old crushes.

-quotes of the year
there are 10 kinds of people - those who understand binary and those who dont
nobody's perfect, i'm nobody [i know you've heard that! i'm totally in love with it]
AND MY FAVOURITE
teenagers are supposed to be sloppy and live in filth
teenagers are supposed to watch endless hours of mindless tv
teenagers are supposed to eat tons of crap and be full when its time for dinner
teenagers are supposed to poke holes in their bodies and cover them with art

-orkut
orkut used to be a weakness. now its not. as my sister says "everyone wants to know only one thing : hi hw ru". i hate orkut. i have 137 friends and i havent chatted/talked/scrapped almost 100 of them. i dont deny anyones friend request(no reason). though i have to admit that orkut gave me a chance to find old friends.

-studies
2006 was the year when i really learned how to not make use of time, how to waste time, how to lie to my mom that i finished learning and then watch tv. i got my first B grade this year. and i dint manage to get a 90% yet. i hope i make it in my boards. (yeh you see im waiting for a miracle on march 1)

-school
lost a lot of friends bc i 'left' vishnu. see, im the bitch here. whatever. mal is not my best friend anymore. now i have only two close friends - crazygurl424 and bhavya. bhavya is really funny and we make a LOT of sarcastic jokes when we're together. she is a lot like chandler. crazygurl and i had a lot of fun in 7 months than i had in my whole life with anyone else. this year i really understood why mark twain said "i never let my schooling interfere with my education"

-pimples
i got a hell lot of them this year. did go to a doctor for that. my mom's friends daughter got clearly deprived of her pimples so we went to her doctor day before yesterday. i really want to get rid of them. it is SO irritatinggggg. and i always feel sad when i see my 2005 pics. aarandu praakiyathaanu.

-resolutions
take more care of my face.
read more books
learn how to do chords
have a GREAT time in my eleventh

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!!!
HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A WONDERFUL 2007
(and i mean it :))

(if you cant see it, save it and zoom. its worth a read)

Love is holding hands in the street.
Marriage is holding arguments in the street.

Love is dinner for 2 in your favorite restaurant.
Marriage is a take home packet.

Love is cuddling on a sofa.
Marriage is one of them sleeping on a sofa.

Love is talking about having children.
Marriage is talking about getting away from children.

Love is going to bed early.
Marriage is going to sleep early.

Love is a romantic drive.
Marriage is arrive on tops curvy tarmac .

Love is losing your appetite.
Marriage is losing your figure.

Love is sweet nothing in the ear.
Marriage is sweet nothing in the bank.

Tv has no place in love.
Marriage is a fight for remote control.

Love is 1 drink and 2 straws.
Marriage is "Don't you think you've had enough!".

Conclusion:
"Love is blind, Marriage is an eye opener!!

1. Join the circus or become a nun?
2. Own a big cabin in the Rockies or a small apartment in New York City?
3. Grow two feet taller or shrink 2 feet shorter?
4. Have the power to become invisible, to mind-read, or to fly?
5. Snore or talk in your sleep?
6. Be good at math or good at art?
7. Pierce your nose or get a tattoo?
8. Eat the same thing everyday or lose your sense of smell?
9. Forget your name or everyone else's?
10. Have more luck than sense or more sense than luck?
11. Be a boy or a girl?
12. Trade lives with your gym teacher or your math teacher?
13. Say "you know" after every sentence or "like" before every sentence?
14. Be named Grape or Pistachio?
15. Always eat with your hands or have to put hot sauce on everything you eat? [i always eat with my hands duh]
16. Be stranded on a desert island with a clueless hunk or a gross person with survival training?
17. Go hiking or watch a video?
18. Have a crush on your best friend's girlfriend/boyfriend or find out that she/he has one on you?
19. Build a snowman or a sandcastle?
20. Be born with wheels instead of legs or wings instead of arms?
21. Lose your keys or lose your shoes?
22. Know absolutely everything about your crush or about world history? [sighhh]
23. Change your past or know your future?
24. Go camping or stay in a fancy hotel?
25. Have the power to calm everyone down or get them REALLY excited?
26. Always lose or never play?
27. Be a dog named Killer or a cat named Fluffy?
28. Vegetables taste like candy or traffic sounds like laughter?
30. Exercise or get a manicure?
31. Listen to a 1-hour tape of loud machinery or a boring 1-hour lecture?
32. Be the most popular girl in school or get good grades?
33. Get a kangaroo or a baby elephant for your birthday?
34. Know it all or have it all?
35. Have twenty pretty good friends or one best friend?
36. Be stupid and loved or brilliant and disliked?
37. Be liked for your looks or your personality?
38. Get even or get over it?


muuhaaahaahaa i tag:

vibharaj
athiran
wicked_danu
abhishek_kar
YOU GUYS GOTTA DO THIS
*grins*

so its bin crazygurl424's job for a long time to answer people when they ask what happened between me and vishnu:

nml: avarenthina odakkiye?
crazygurl: avalkkippo single aayi nadakkunnatha ishtam
nml: OHO, double aayi nadakkunnatil entha ithra prashnam??

rotfl

translation:
nml: why did they break up?
crazygurl: atm, she wants to be single
nml: OHO, whts the big deal in being double??



and can you believe that vinay and i havent had a normal talk yet??- its bin a WEEK for god's sake. aaaaarrrgggggghhhh. sucks so much


crazygurl424 and i are planning to take a photograph of the principal's room (when he is out of it, btw lol). something like a dare. yeh well not so big a deal. just for the heck of it.

and and and who watched on tv or read in the newspaper or saw online that:
emraan hashmi got married
!!!
well, he looks so so so cute. never seen any of his movies though except gangster in which only shiny ahuja was WORTH seeing. emraan was okay. and the run-out girl (kangna ranaut if i'm not mistaken) was like, either she's drunk or she's silent. she never had a proper dialogue in it. and whenever she did have some lines to shout out (when she's angry in the movie) everyone would be awed. blehhh.. loser's strategy *booooo*